1:47 AM
random.
pay day is coming! no more poverty. =d
i feel like a giant balloon! I MUST GO ON DIET! my choice of clothes are shrinking. =[
ordered KFC during work. asked whether porky and his colleagues want anot. he said no but told me to bring leftovers for him. i told him he should go on diet and he gave me that cute dumbfounded face again. i shud save those words for myself man. =[
13 oct = cycling with kukus! DO NOT WORK!
days with porky are numbered. =[
i want my dustbin leh, kuku.
meow?
SQUEAK!
10:56 PM
im a big and fat dope.
was pretty stressed out just now as i couldnt get internet connection for my IS enrolment. damn. wasnt thinking straight and went to call him "porky". his eyes widened and jaw dropped. cute. =d
ytD's private event was fun. the place was packed with customers, and yet we dun even need to serve. weeee~ got a free bracelet from the company but no chance to taste the yummies. SAD.
i feel freaking fat.
meow?
SQUEAK!
12:36 AM
ok. im a big lumpy pig.
worked in pasta ytD. a mere 3.5k day and i dropped dead at home after work. anyway, it was fun. old birds ate staff meal with me and i actually slacked for 1 whole hour outside. and A&W didnt say anyth. woooots.
im old, fat and cranky. huge big sigh.
and my arms muscle hurt from carrying all de condiments. no joke.
working full tmr at paragon for some stupid event. hais.
speaking of work, porky didnt work today. feel so demoralised and unmotivated. LOLx. but my way-too-old handsome, who stop speaking tt much to me after realising im 9 years younger than him, asked for my number. im contended for the next 10 yrs of my life. HAHA.
oh, ive tendered my resignation form. good thing is i dun have to see my supervisor anymore. bad thing is i cant see porky anymore. huge big sigh. back to pasta i guess. instead of human form il be staring at dishes with ham.
and ive received my acceptance letter from MDIS. weeee! after tw trip il be starting school straight. how great.
words spread very fast huh?
meow?
SQUEAK!
1:27 AM
I AM FCUKING PISSED.
today, 2 middle-age people from city harvest church came to knock on my house door and spoke to my mum. and these 2 very kind people told my mum, "mrs cheong, your daughter is suffering from an illness, and she has many problems." -insert preaching of god-
as a result, i got nagging from my mum, complaining that she raised me for 18 years and she has to know about these through strangers.
KNN WHAT THE FCUKING CHAO CHEE BYE.
I HAVE NEVER EVER COMPLAINED ABOUT BEING A DIABETIC, NEITHER DO I TAKE PROBLEMS WHICH ARE PART AND PARCEL OF LIFE AS A MAJOR ISSUE.
how do these 2 very kind people know where i live? and how come they knew of my surname. im fcuking sure i dunno any middle age people in CHC.
and excuse me, i am not suffering. do you see me walking around with only one leg?
and also, i dont go around telling just anyone about my problems. and when i do, its not for people to use it as factor for reasons that my mum should come under your God.
and fcuk, im not the fcuking weak-hearted chicken type to put up that kinda pathetic, im sick and poor and living a pitiful life front. KNN. do i look like the weak type? have i got not enough backbone to accept facts that i cant change?
KNNCCB I AM FCUKING PISSED OFF. BLOODY TURTLE.
i regret going to church.
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on a lighter and less vulgar note, porky worked today! and he teased me about my lateness. cute la! ^^
and that seng meihui. wat bullshit first love. 4get about me more like it. =[
meow?
SQUEAK!
1:29 AM
im bored.
went to work to rot today. porky worked today, but only managed to see him when i was leaving. big huge sigh.
somehow, the guys at my neighbouring store is better den my own colleagues. maybe because i prefer testosterone. kidding. anyway as i was leaving, one of the guys came over to ask how's work. he said he was concerned cOs my face seemed black the whole day dued to hormonal interference and i told him im goddamn touched and will go home and cry. hahaha. cuted.
oh yeah. some guy from mdis called regarding my application form. he said in this haughty manner, "the next time you mail us, please include your photos inside."
i replied, "I did. its inside the envelope. i didnt paste it on but i put them in the envelope." and he immediately lost the fcuking condescending tone and said he will go check.
KNN. you pa jiao still dare to xia lan with me.
one message to kuku and she came down to PRG and watch ratatouille with me! weeee~ and because of the kuku she is, she lost her way and was teeny weeny late and lost the chance to see Porky. HHAHAA. kidding la.
she got me one nail art stickers and i bought another one myself. happily paid for them and then i recalled i put schedule at pasta for next week. huge big sigh.
im learning how to save at the tender age of 18 and 3 months. so sensible of me. anw i wanna learn driving and piano. if money & time permit, maybe take up dance with kuku and learn jap in depth.
this is the difference between the insane and the sane. and obviously im the mentally functional one. =x
i cut my hair agn! more mature with short hair right? HAHHAA. just kidding, i only tied the back of my tail. i look like a ghost man. pls jio me out for a swim after this very inconvenient time of the month.
kuku/gf tested me time & date today. which is actually a way of hinting, ITS OUR 17TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY! weee~ we're a month older! treat the pink eyeliner as pressie la hor. im awaiting my chocos. =x
anw, the pre-ordered eyeliners came. its super duper nice la! got for kuku/laopo purple one, which can be used a lipstick. so nice of me to get you what u want. and where's MINE? LOST.
-.-
nights all.
meow?
SQUEAK!
10:31 PM
i realised what a big fat bitch i am. for 2 whole hours after work, i sit in the restaurant and gossip about people with my colleagues. WAKAKKAA. im mean and i dun care.
roarrrr. my hours are cut again. lets hope Porky work tmr. =D
meow?
SQUEAK!
12:54 AM
to my kukus: please sleep.
to myself: please sleep more.
stock take today at pgn. woke up 1 hour late, but who the fcuk cares. that bitchy told me to reach 15 mins earlier and yet she herself came after 9. like wtF.
cabbed to HQ to return their shites and took bus to bugis to meet my kuku eng. there's a shuai ge on my bus, sitting in front of me! oh my!
tempted to get many things, but got nth in the end. hohohoo. but found my lesbian tee! kuku's gonna get it for me on sat. yeah!
movie trip with by was cancelled. had free pasta, SOD, garlic bread, pizza, drink and DONUTS at pasta PBJ. the banana crews took turn to eat with the kukus. feel so wanted. HAHA. weeeee~
i am freaking tired. i feel like going MIA for a teeny while. see no evil. face no pretty but brainless supervisor or skinnies in black. put on face mask, read a book, go jogging, paint my toenails and watch popeye the sailor man.
i need a rest.
meow?
SQUEAK!
12:53 AM
wisma. bugis. westmall. work work work.
i am tired like some fcuken shite.
i wanna go cycling! kukus!!!!!
meow?
SQUEAK!
2:18 AM
its been months since i worked on a sunday. ok, been quite a while since i worked on a weekend. and ive forgotten how busy PM can be. tiring! and kinda pissed with ppl with no initiative. whatever.
kuku and beanie accompanied me for my dose of retail therapy on fri. weeeee~ din buy alot, just a yellow tube dress, brown heels and hairband. but still feel broke after that. and they accompanied me to work, despite mountains of workload back at home. weeee! now u know why i still think girls are better.
had mtg that night in PM. last till abt 1am. and i had to work in PGN the next day. and dammit fcuking suay i caught a flu. so took a pill before leaving for work. damn drowsy. i actually fell asleep from 5 to 6.30pm, when my break actually ends at 515pm. thank god for good supervisors. =d
bad-ed today with by! oh my tian! like so damn fcuking long never see her face la. happy can. =D and we realised we bad better when we are TALKING. HAHHA. she bought me softee ice cream and brought me to work. xin fu~ now u know why i still think girls are better.
kuku came to bring me home from work today! weeee~ now u know why i still think girls are better.
and we got a free ride home from dan & wani. talked and gossip about many things. like the first few months in PM bugis, where we were complained that we are SLOW. hahah. the time where manuel threw me back to support on my 2nd day as cashier. and after clearing the queue he was damn smug about it. and i got angry with him and didnt talk to him the whole day. and he had the cheek to announce to the whole world im angry with him. and how kuku's support "training" is merely standing at the fountain drink area taking drinks. LOL . nostalgic.
i had to be in wisma tmr at 830am! goddamn. after tt will be in PM for closing. so why am i still here? mental head slap.
meow?
SQUEAK!
1:06 AM
thought i could have some time for myself. guess its not meant to be. im turning into a workaholic it seems.
i reali hate "typical malay girls". defined by my PM manager.
who's version is right and who's wrong? whose words should i take as the truth? behind that facade, does something entirely different lurks? or am i the one tts too naive?
the world suddenly seem too cryptic for me.
i feel like quitting man. imagine working in a familiar place with unfamiliar ppl. dang.
i realised who is the person who deleted me in friendster. hmm.
meow?
SQUEAK!
1:39 AM
gentle reminders to self:
1. pack my room, esp my exploding wardrobe.
2. stop spending.
3. stop eating so much.
4. resume my evening jog routine.
5. stop working like a mad dog.
meow?
SQUEAK!
